A little better, a little worse
On Tuesday I interviewed with the company that got back to me. They were excited at the prospect of me joining the company– and frequently said so as well. They were somewhat concerned about me being overqualified for the position– afraid that they were going to put the time and resources into training, only to have me go off and find a higher-paying, full-time position. (The position is part-time for a broadcast media monitoring company, which watches broadcasts, edits video, edits text, and searches databases. The company is very small, with about 10 employees.) The work seems really interesting to me, especially since there are so many different aspects to it. And with such a small company, even a part-timer has a big impact in the work they do.
Anyway, today they asked me to come in and meet with the managers to see if it would be a good fit all around. They then offered me the job. I was very happy.
Moving on, over the past few weeks I’ve suddenly developed a fear of making phone calls. I finally called my dad today, but that was the first time in a while. It bothers me that I’m letting these things control me. I want to break free and get my life back on track– I don’t want to be a victim to myself. It’s interfered with so many things– there have been so many times I needed to make a call but couldn’t bring myself to pick up the phone. I’m not sure why everything is developing so quickly, but I need to get ahold of myself and make myself better. I really can’t let myself continue to go in this direction. I have people I need to take care of and I can’t let myself give in.
about 1 year ago
I’ve been like that about phone calls before – I think it’s a basic fear of rejection. If it’s a personal phone call, maybe they don’t want to talk right then & if it’s a professional phone call, I would worry about sounding stupid on the phone or something. It was a big deal for me for a while – when I was about your age, but luckily I was in a profession that required me to make a lot of phone calls & I worked thru it.
I’m VERY glad to hear that you got a job. And, despite the fact that it’s not my life, I’m glad it’s only part time. I just think a mother of a small child working a full time job is too much.
Happy anniversary!!!